April 21, 2022
Friends & Family, 

It's time for that seemingly random, long overdue family update! 

Picking up from where we left off...

IVF. 

In January of 2021, David and I transferred our first embryo as a last ditch effort after 3 years of infertility treatment. I will never forget looking up at David, after watching our baby (then a cluster of cells), actively growing under the microscope prior to the procedure. Tears of pain, fear, frustration and hope in both of our eyes. In the background played the song "The Story I'll Tell," proclaiming that even in the darkest hour, "my God did not fail." I can still feel the sense of peace that overcame me as I surrendered to his will that day. I knew I had nothing left to give, I had done everything I could. Even so, the old wives tales? Failed. Even so, the countless medications and injections? Failed. Even so, the numerous IUIs? Failed. Special diets? Failed. The science, the research and the odds? Failed. I laid there lacking confidence in the process, but was filled to the brim with confidence in the power and faithfulness of Jesus. I didn't know what story I would tell one day. To be honest, I was preparing for another heartbreak. 

Two weeks later I got the phone call that I was pregnant. I collapsed in praise of my God, who did not fail. I know that one day, I will understand why it happened the way it did. I'm still processing. The journey was hands down one of the most challenging things I've been through physically, relationally, emotionally and spiritually. There is hurt, brokenness and grief in my story. More importantly there is strength, hope, and healing.

On my hardest days, I held on to the truth of who God is and how he is ACTIVE in our lives. 

Lamentations 3: 22-23 

"The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases, his mercies never end; they are new every morning; great is thy faithfulness." 

There were countless days that I truly could not imagine mustering up the strength to face another day of bitterness, anger and overwhelming sadness. Yet, God was present. When I didn't think it was possible, when I didn't know what I needed, or how I was going to keep moving with such heaviness, he freely sustained me in every moment, of every day. THIS is the story I'll tell. 

Because of God's goodness, I carried our sweet baby, knowing that each day was a gift that was not deserved or promised to me. In September we welcomed our precious little girl- Ruthie Wren. I can't wait to tell her one day how loved and prayed for she was. How badly I wanted to be her Momma and how God literally moved mountain after mountain to give her life! What an incredible testimony to his power and LOVE for his children. 

Other good news to report: David completed his second surgery and is anticipating his third and FINAL surgery in May! He is so ready to be done and get back to life as normal! We are so thankful for all of his providers who have played a crucial part in giving him his life back! Another answered prayer! 

I started a new job with Monogram Health in January and love it. 

We celebrated our 5 year anniversary and Connor's 31st birthday with our family over Easter weekend. Complete with a special dinner at Pelican and Pig, a trip to the farmers market, an everlasting game of corn hole, worshipping the risen king and of course an egg hunt in our yard! 

Other than those life updates, we're pretty boring. We eat leftovers most nights for dinner and go to bed at 9:00. But hey...after the past 5 years we've had together, boring is beautiful. 

With love,

The Konstants